Here's to the night...

Here's to the cold December night that found me so consumed and overwhelmed with work that I reached a breaking point. I think it was a combination of the vast amounts of delicious hazelnut coffee that I had essentially been consuming intravenously since November and the stress of juggling school, work, and my life that lead me to the realization that I needed to take a break and do something for myself or my head would explode. I'm no doctor but despite this process always appearing humorous and colorful in cartoons-I'm almost sure it's somewhat painful if not deadly...but I digress. ( get used to this my little internet friends)


So, there I was, moments away from emailing my professor to inform him that I will not be submitting my research paper, in fact, not even attending classes anymore because I have decided to give up my educational pursuits in my senior year so I can travel, join the circus, become a movie star (my plans were vague and irrational at this point). My best friend and vent session partner was in class and things were getting pretty desperate. (note: I tend to be a bit dramatic, it makes life more exciting. Sometimes.)  It was then that I had one of those "ah-ha!" moments. Much like in cartoons, the room dimmed and became blurry and suddenly a light bulb appeared brightly above my head, I had an idea. 



I had been playing around with the idea of starting a blog for about a year. I am a bit blog obsessed and read my favorites religiously. The concept of just putting myself out there though was a bit daunting and intimidating. Not that I expected anyone to stumble upon my blog and read all of my thoughts and musings, just what if they did?? 


So in a conscious effort to keep in line with my resolution that I made for myself a year ago (more on that later. maybe) to try out new experiences and people-I made this blog. After a few controlled breathing exercises to lower my heart rate I indulged in some personal back-patting. I have always found creative writing and journaling to be cathartic. I'm at the point in school now where I've finished my majors and minors and have to take weird classes just for the credits. I've been battling with the boredom I am feeling towards school as well as feeling creatively sapped. I miss the enthusiasm, excitement, and innocence that the early years of college brought on. I miss the free time that everyone seemed to have to go out or sit around connect with those around us.I really enjoy having those in-dept conversations about life, current events, music,  love, and everything in between with friends that last until the early mornings (ok, so maybe 1am at the latest recently). 


I see this blog as the opportunity to ebb the tide of a million though buzzing  around in my brain while at the same time sharing some of the things that interest me and really get my creative juices flowing again (ick, i've always hated that phrase but it seems most apt). So bear with me and my inevitable spelling mistakes.


SO, here's to the night that I took a chance, here's to the night that will hopefully start something productive and rewarding, here's to the night that I finally finished my research paper, and most importantly- Here's to the night that I felt alive!